FUCK HATERS

xjeeezy:

I don’t want us to be like others that have come & go in our lives.

I want us to last. I want a relationship that I can say that I’m proud to be in, even with the arguments & disagreements that we have from time to time. All of my past relationships have been filled with cheating, mind games & constant lying & I don’t want that to be us. I want us to be different. I want us to conquer all of the things that me & my past lovers couldn’t. & Honestly, I’m done looking for other guys. I only want you.

I’m willing to be faithful & keep fighting for this relationship as long as you are, because I’m in it for the long run.

Old habits die hard

xjeeezy:

I have the type of mind set that if you cross me, I’ll cross you right back but 100 times harder. I could do it in front of your face or I’ll do it behind your back & not mention a thing & sleep at night as if nothing happened. & I don’t usually hurt people physically, that’s too easy. I fuck with them emotionally. I can be a really fucked up person, I’m not afraid to admit that. I can be the most cold hearted person you will ever meet only if you give me a reason. I don’t do it for shits & giggles, no. If you trigger a negative emotion in me, my thoughts in my mind are always “Don’t get mad, get even. Break them.” 

I hate this side of me. My temper overtakes my entire state of mind & I take things to the point where I will do anything & everything just to hurt you untill you break. I’m so used to doing things like this because it was constantly done to me so much in the past. I know it’s no excuse but that’s the reason I am the way I am & it’s a habit I’m not proud of.

Hopefully one day things will change. Because I don’t want to live like this anymore.